Some might say there are no worries in Islandville. I got 'em. And they have to do with RA. Ick.
The beach is a wonderful place. Sand, sun, ocean. Ahh. But this past weekend I had the weird moment of not wanting to put on my swim suit because . . .
I had a bruise from my Enbrel.
Oh shush. Quit your laughing.
Yeah, it might be small enough that no one else would notice, but to me it's like a big black and blue X on my stomach saying "I have arthritis, I had to give myself a shot last night, and it hurt really bad." Laugh all you want, but I know there are others out there who get that same feeling. It might seem like such a minimal thing to worry about, but it's a self conscious thing. I like to forget that I have arthritis as much as I can. But when it's staring at me in the mirror, I just want to cover up and hide. Even if it's just a little bruise.
Alright, if you're done laughing at me we'll move on . . .
The other beauty/ick of the beach is walking on that soft, gorgeous, powdery sand. Ah, how lovely it is to wiggle your toes in the floury, white, cloud-like sand. The problem is walking any distance in it. If you have ever tried running in the dry sand, you know how hard it works your legs. Your feet sink in with every step. When walking along the beach, my knee pain is doubled because of the extra effort it takes to move my legs. The farther I walk, the harder each step becomes. Add trying to keep up with your long legged spouse and it's even more difficult.
It's awful because I so love walking on the beach!
It's these situations that you don't think about until you're in the middle of it. And no one ever warns you about them. So here I am, with extra knee pain, a healing bruise from last Friday's shot, and I have to do it all over again today. Sigh. I guess if you're gonna be in pain, you might as well be somewhere beautiful.
I also could stop eating strawberry ice cream. That might help too.
But who wants to give up walks on the beach and ice cream? I know I don't!
So that's the end of my complaining. Because after all it's Friday. There are beaches to see and even if my knees kill me, it won't stop me from enjoying the wonders of the ocean. And I love ice cream.
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